lot of things got in the way, with so many African friends there, I got into the old lifestyle of partying, clubbing and buying alcohol. This went on for about 1 year. In that time I had a fear, I knew I needed to come back to God, but in my frame of mind I just kept hoping I wouldn't die yet, that He would give me more time to change.
A white man from my workplace invited me to Baraka (church) on Post Oak. When I went down there, the preacher was talking about politics- the war with Russia and the United States. Later on I was invited to different churches: a Baptist one on McGowen Street but I wasn't really welcomed there, not even by the acamodadas; from there I went to the Shrine of the Black Madonna (on Martin Luther King Boulevard) and was told to sit in back because I wasn't "qualified" to sit in the front, then I was invited to a church off God in Christ on McGowen where I stayed for 6 months. I like the music program, the liveliness of the services, which reminded me Glad Tidings. Even though I attended every service for a while, but no one ever told me about the baptism of the Holy Ghost. I had attended my last Sunday before I was again going back out into the world. On that Tuesday I brought myself a bottle of gin early, at 8 pm and sat on the bleachers of Lee High School playing field on Richmond and drank
all of it. I was reminiscing about my past life. I left the field and brought another bottle, returned to the same place, and again thought about my past memories until I got tipsy, then I returned home to my apartment and went to bed. That's when I saw a great light. The ceiling had vanished, and a very big, bright light was shining. It was not a hot light, but it seemed to be thousands and  thousands of them, but the brightest spot was in the center. I thought I was drunk, but I became very frightened-something was happening to me, I turned my head to the wall, but the image was still there. I wanted to shriek, shout out loud. The only sensation I got was that I

on good ground to settle and grow.  Jesus was not like ones who are so entangled in life, and the things of life. He did not allow the Word of God to get lost in the shuffle of life.
He did not make the things of this world a major concern, but instead was moved with compassion to help the people of His world.   He prepared himself to serve in prayer a great while before daylight, hidden away on a mountain. He gave himself wholly to the Spirit of God.  In preparing Himself as a sacrifice, He received strength to impart Spiritual gifts to others, and to die of the cross of Calvary. Jesus suffered torture more than any man and the laying on of our sins, as well as the weight of the sins of the world upon Himself.
If you can remember the weight of sins that lifted off of you as you were baptized in the wonderful name of Jesus Christ, you can magnify these billions of times in effort to imagine the weight of sins that popped the bones of our Lord, out of place and aided in His disfigurement.  These were the sins of man, our sins, not His. Yet He willingly took them in our place. He asks us to love our brother as ourselves, and if we see another in need, to do what we can.  He had no place to lay his head so that He could put all of his time and energies into others. He was SEPARATED and Holy, in this way, providing and watching for OUR salvation.  Since realizing the great gifts of love and Spirit that the Lord has given to us, surely we want to live a life that would please Him.
We have received wonderful gifts from the Lord, life, clothing, food, loving families, and to many the gift of the Holy Ghost speaking in the language that the Father causes us to, and having all of our sins washed away in baptism in the name o Jesus Christ, our sacrifice.  (Acts 2:38)  We must decide if we are willing to give all in return, to Him.  Joshua said:  Choose ye this day whom ye will serve.  We must choose Jesus. 
We note that one thing that Jesus did was to make Himself of no reputation.  Though His light could not be hidden, He did not seek to draw attention to himself as a flesh and blood man.  He compassionately and continually drew attention to the Spirit of God.
Caring not that other people think it strange, we should want to draw unto and push away from things, so that we may be closer to Him.  He has called us to be separated from the world, in other words: Holy.  We can find the standard of living that the bible called for in the life of Jesus Christ.